STORIES
You'll find below pieces over the years that indulge in this genre of descriptive writing.
Rock and Mortar
Room of Confinement
There was a time...
I'm different because I'm Muslim
ROCK AND MORTAR
Year - 2021
It is often said that humans have an infallible tendency to pick up habits and traits from people around them. Vaidehi was 6 when she first started to tuck her hair back just like the way Mamta masi from London used to do it. Four fingers gently caressing back the hair framing her cheeks, tucking it behind her ears. At 11 years old in the summer of 2014, when Vaidehi and her family moved to Mumbai, she met a boy so inherently kind with his lopsided grin, one liner quips and messy hair stuffed under his cycle hemlet that she began picking up his catchphrases. Little lines that piece by piece pulled at her heart strings, until they consumed her so heavily it felt like a corset she couldn't breathe in - he broke her heart in late 2014 when she saw him holding hands and aiming that same lopsided grin at Padma. Suddenly Vaidehi was forgotten. Thus, began a fervent need to get over him which was exactly when she stumbled upon her sister's make-that-boy-regret-his-whole-life playlist. Taylor Swift, Avril Lavigne, Beyonce, Katy Perry, the Spice Girls. Vaidehi's glow up phase took her personality over like a storm. She braided her hair the way Anu didi taught her when she'd come back for the summer, leaving a few wisps of her hair loose. Rohan had once complimented her for her choice in skirts so now she began wearing baggy cargo pants the way Missy Elliot did in her last music video. Vaidehi was alot of things then and all of them a culmination of rock and mortar picked up from every person in her life.
Now she's 20 in college, studying microbiology and modelling at the same time because she'd seen another model on tiktok do it and make it a real life possibility. But Adi just broke up with her, told her he'd fallen out of love - she just wasn't the same anymore. Who was going to tell him no one ever is. But the self doubt and pity led her astray until she got drunk one night and locked eyes (from across the room) with the most beautiful girl she'd ever seen in her life; she smiled and thus, so did Vaidehi.
ROOM OF CONFINEMENT
Year - 2018
Hands splayed over the ground beneath me, I felt the ridges of the age-old stone prickle my palm. Each crooked crevice within reach of my fingers was carved into memory; memorized after exploring it for hours on end. But had it been hours? I do not know how long I have been here. Minutes? Hours? Days? I didn’t keep track of the time spent here. What was the point? I couldn’t get out anyway.
I was lying across my back, unmoving. I stared at my hand, as I brought it in front of my face. It blocked the sunlight that filtered through the window, creating a kind of hallow around it. Like the one that crowns the head of a goddess; so beautiful, ethereal. But, there was nothing of beauty here. Like a facade shed, I moved my palm to the right, hallow gone. I could now plainly see my palm dusted black (a souvenir from the stone ground). Swiping it across my side I looked at it again and saw that the dust had been wiped out but I could still see the darkness. Perhaps not physically but I felt the darkness that had filled within me. It coloured my hand a dark red, like blood. It was blood or had been. A shudder went through my body as memories of that night held me still. I remembered the body; brutalised so viciously one wouldn’t have been able to stomach the sight of it. I remember screams, piercing the night air. So loud it made your blood run cold and startled you to a stop. Your hair stood on its ends and the skin underneath would turn ashen. As I recalled the night, a sudden terror gripped me. It squeezed my throat, punching the air out of my lungs, making me feel dizzy. I was gasping for air. I felt my hands hold my stomach and I realised that body had been mine. Those screams had been mine. My freedom had been ripped away; snatched. I felt caged. The memories do not stop and my sanity forsakes my fingers and stays out of reach. The walls were closing in, each minute, each second.
Help me. Help me. Help m...
I need to get out of this cage, it withers me with thoughts. Or I would soon be sucked into the perpetual brutality of that memory, one that I cannot bear; not a second longer. Let me out.
Help me.
THERE WAS A TIME…
Year - 2019
There was a woman that lived across my family’s home and she used to give my friends and me strawberry-scented jelly candy. They used to be round and flat, an almost indiscernible indent almost always in the centre. A rosy soft hue of pink, wrapped in a see-through sheer material that once pulled apart from the treasure inside would crease and crinkle in a million ways. Held against the sun’s rays, light transcends through and disperses into a spectrum of gold and silver. It was unlike anything we had seen.
There was a girl that I called my best friend and she used to microwave my favourite popcorn. Sneaking past her disapproving mother, we would transform into the girls from “Totally Spies!”. Light on our feet and deviously unapologetic, we used to raid her storage for the double butter, salted bag of popcorn. A minute into the pop of the popcorn she would always start to hop around, paranoia sending her to the kitchen door on the lookout for her mother and each time I would pull her back just a few seconds before the microwave would alarm us of our success, and alarm her mother of an unsolicited invasion of her supplies. We would retreat back to her room, celebrating our success with an hour of uninterrupted television time with the Winx Club.
There was a maid that lived with us and she would create roses from crepe paper. Hands soft yet deft and swift, would with what would have remained to be a sheet of fragile red paper construct the most beautiful roses. Layers on layers, the material would overlap softly over one another; where one ended, the other would start. I would sit beside her on our marble floor staring, transfixed as her fingers would fold and pull on the paper, the paper whispering as they rubbed against itself. Within minutes a plethora of flowers would pile up on the floor, cascading down as they wouldn’t hold still on each other’s uneven surfaces. It was as if she would lose herself in that mere act of crafting and it wasn’t until now that I realised why her eyes would light up like they held a hundred stars within their depths and her lips would stretch, it would seem involuntary, into a wide smile when I would ask if she could make some flowers for me.
I realised: it was an escape. Not just for my maid, but for the lady living across our home and for my friend who would rather spend hours watching episodes with me than converse with her mother. Hardship had come for them long before it would come for me. Life, holding their every living moment in its slender palms, would twist and turn its course with a flick of its fingers and once where their days were filled with joyous seconds turned into ones filled with sorrow. I realised, to feel even a meagre of the happiness from the bygone day’s they would do anything. The lady had lost her only child to a rare disease, its name my infant brain could not comprehend. My friend lived with parents almost always at each other’s throats, a never-ending outburst of marital bickering, screaming profanities and throwing ultimatums making it heart wrenching to be around either of them. And the maid had seen days of profound poverty forcing her to discard her dream of teaching art and instead slave away her days to earn for her family.
The little girl who would see them everyday had never known of their grief. She didn’t ask about their lives because she assumed they had the same as hers. Now, however, as that girl grew into who I am today, I see it. I see them. It does not matter what we all go through, the innocence of childhood would shine like the sun through the candy wrapper, like the stars in her eyes and like the love of friendship.
I’M DIFFERENT BECAUSE I’M MUSLIM
Year - 2019
All is not fair in love and war. In fact, it’s the opposite. It’s unfair, because how could it be fair to snatch thousands of innocent children from their mothers’ arms? From their homes? I crouch inside a tiny shed. It’s not even a shed anymore, just a structure standing unsteadily on crooked feet with wooden bars for walls and a huge steel plate for a roof. Rust has scourged away at it; tiny holes were everywhere, outlined by crusty brown dust. Sunlight peeks through them, thin beams filtering through the smoke outside. For now, I’m safe from the smoke.
For now.
Uncle Ari had warned me to stay away from it because where there was smoke, there was death. Gingerly placing my hands on the wooden bars, I squint to see between them.
The men have come. They always come after the smoke. They come in hoards, fear and grief at their heels and spears at their sides. They stop at Ali’s home. Their home is a little more than a hovel but it is their home. Yet, they drag his father out, by his hands. He is thrashing around, screaming for help as he watches his wife being jostled out the door, listening to her beg for mercy. But the men are merciless, butchering life and proving the loss of sanity. They move on to the next family, and the next, and the next…
Am I next? I can’t move, my legs were wooden. I back away from the wall, folding myself into a corner wishing for all this to be over. Stop. Please stop. I close my eyes but all I see are those men and women being hit with sticks. Crack. Broken backs. Crack. Fractured bones. Crack. Splintered sticks covered in blood. Crack. Families separated. Their cries don’t stop and all I can think is why? Why are they doing this? That’s when I hear it.
“Pakistan murdabad”
That was the reason. It didn’t matter that we were all human, all that mattered was race, religion. Temporary insanity overtook their minds, leaving them blind to see that they were murdering not Muslims, but humans, neighbours, friends. Like katputlis on strings, their blood rage controlled them and now the muddy streets of Allahabad were drenched in blood. A deep burgundy red seemed to seep through this shed’s cracks. I cry out in remorse so loud that I am instantly filled with terror because I hear their boots stopping outside. I can’t stop crying now or shaking. The wooden walls come crashing down and as I’m blinded by the harsh light I realise they hate me. Us. All because I am different. All because I am Muslim. Muslims are burned and looted, women are raped, children are killed in front of their siblings and all they are left with is rage and carnage. The only reason being that, I am different.